I Am Intense. Pass the Pepper, Please?
November 14th, 2006 . by mattI am intense. It’s true. I always have been. And this intensity can draw people to me and scare them away. But how else am I going to get what I want, in life? If I don’t wake up every morning and attack something? Especially now, when I’m doing everything I can to learn everything I can? I’m lucky now to even feel this way, to feel like there is a place for me, somewhere, that I can be fulfilled in most ways… not sure where it is, yet, but I do feel like I’m getting closer. I think there was a time in the rock band when I lost that edgy feeling, and, though it might have made me an easier person to be around, it wasn’t really me. And so it didn’t feel very good. I’m older and wiser, now… I think that it’s easier to pass as “normal” now than it was ten years ago, but I’m kind of glad that I’m this way. Intense.
I have my very first acting audition in a few weeks. For my mother’s company, the Barter Theatre in Virginia. I just want to go for the experience, really. Getting a job there would take me away from Charleston for a month or more, and I’m not sure I can do that, anyway. But it’s exciting to be a little nervous about something, to stretch in ways I haven’t. It’s good for me.
Still trying to come up with sneaky ways to financially counteract all this non-paying work I’m doing. Besides whoring, which without fail is the number one suggestion from anyone that I ask for advice on how to make money. Interesting. Vaguely interesting, anyway.
oh, please don’t whore yourself. sell your plasma every tuesday first.
and break a leg at barter! that’s so exciting! that intensity comes in handy.
being intense makes you powerful! love that intensity.
at any rate, i might could get some web related work for you… it won’t get you all that much money… but it’d be some flow of income. so let me know if you are interested and i will see what i can do.
and when you do head to or from virginia stop in raleigh and join me for a cup o joe or something… my treat.
Matt, you’re a great writer! You could write a bestseller and make millions
Have you ever considered writing a much longer and detailed biography of Jump Little Children and all the adventures you experienced? I, for one, would love to read that!
I saw this episode and thought of you!
http://www.zefrank.com/theshow/archives/2006/11/110906.html
You’re good with your hands…so I could teach you how to sew
Of course, Britney Spears is looking for a man now…and that would be a VERY profitable venture.
Auditioning is the best. Being nervous. Having something to look forward to. The waiting and the practicing of the monologue. A wonderful experience. Break a leg up there in VA. I’m sure you will do fantastically.
And as always, keep up the intensity. Intensity rocks. It makes life much more interesting, challenging, and exciting. Without intensity, the world would be disenchanted and dull.
I second Olga’s response! You’re an awesome writer, and I would definitely buy the autobiography!
Intensity is the thing that makes you the way you are.